Lonely again!!!!!

All just like a dream... live happily in that dream but all have gone in a mean time when wake up...cant get it anymore although sleep at the same place again... the most important things is must accept everything happen no matter how!! have a nice memories sad memories and so on.. all just can keep in heart myself.. Haiz.. hate this feeling cause too long time d live in a "fake world" cant accept this quick change.. but what to do?? still have to let it be my habit.. really broken heart now..

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Duno where to start and duno what should i write.... Too many things happened in a short time.... Go to B class, prefect's things, cadet's stuff, this and that.... Arrgh!!!really gona insane.. Erm now mind really blank..add on school going reopen d many problems sure waiting for me, "attack" me continuously so i can sure that i will dead beat and cant rest even for a second.. haiz...

lonely again and again..

Actually i dun wan go gurney wif friends cuz no one company oso... but i think tiz is de time 4 me to relax myself, let me calm down and then settle all de problems that i faced.... so i go wif them.. along de time walk wif them, i forced myself to hav a smile wif them finaly i did it!! but i'm not happy wat did i do cuz those smiles are too fake to me.... my friends oso try to cheer me up but they cant did it..when i walk alone, i saw many people laugh happily even thought can eat in harmonies...to me all dat juz happen in once or twice in my life(until now)... all i hav seen juz like wat people did in movie.... hope i can hav it one day...other friends i saw juz like passengers dat juz pass by... or mayb juz greet me at once then disappear out of my sight...Haiz.. Will i lonely forever?? Can i hav some happiness?? All still a mystery.....

NEVER HAPPY again....

Duno why this year NEVER HAPPY again.... Always keep on crying, sad, emo+ing and so on... Anyone else cant make me cheer up again even anything also cant make me feel more better!!! Haiz... after crying feel dead beat doesnt hav any energy and even no mood to do anything even though it is very urgent... add on always quarrel but actually this is not what i wan to.. make people around me worry about me... Haiz...what else can i do?? NOTHING...

Duno wat to do now!!

Problems come towards me again and again!!! Moreover, they come from time to time and a hav no time to take a rest even 1 second.... i reli reli cant stand for it too long!!!! now i'm VERY SCARE dat i'll collapse somedays and dat time doesnt hav any energy to stand up again... Reli desire dat someone can stay wif me to settle all the problems NOW!! Sometimes feel dead beat cuz always juz face the problems myself... thinking dat gona kill myself...... haiz

Dunno WAT to do.....

Just now going 4 tuition n saw her.. Act go tuition is 4 c her 4 las time but when saw her, my heart fil like wan to forgiv her but... Haiya reli duno wat 2 do larh.....

Wat day is TODAY!!!!

Duno why whole day standin inside de 'fryin pan'... moody whole day mayb cuz of her, hu noes??
Luckily she is not b mine yet if not sure break up wif her d!!worry abt her oso not angry her oso not.. even duno wat i'm thinkin oso... Haiz..At 1st gona hangin out wif her but mayb both of us bo ien bo huat toh lo.. sometimes fil dat single is de bes but sometimes din fil dat.. haiya duno larh!!!!
i think de bes way is let both of us hav sometime n space b alone.. mayb tiz wil make us mor closer nex time...